Father's day

Di hari ayah ini, gue cuma pengen mengutarakan semua perasaan yang mungkin ga pernah gue bilang ke papa..

Papa, valni mau bilang terima kasih untuk semua yang sudah papa lakukan untuk valni.. Terima kasih karena udah membiayai pendidikan sampai sarjana.. Maaf kalau lulus tidak membanggakan..
Terima kasih karena sudah membantu valni cari kerjaan trus bela2in dateng pagi biar bisa sekalian ngantor bareng.. Maaf kalau sempat bikin khawatir karena sempat ngekost..
Papa, waktu yang dihabiskan selama perjalanan pergi ataupun pulang kerja adalah waktu yang paling dirindukan saat ini.. Karena saat itulah bisa ngobrol santai sama papa..
Setelah valni pindah kerja dan ga bareng ngantor lagi itu, serasa jarang bisa ngobrol santai lagi.. Jadi lebih banyak miskom.. Valni sedih..
Papa, valni minta maaf kalau banyak kata2 valni yang terlalu kasar dan bikin papa sedih ataupun kecewa.. Valni ga bermaksud buat papa sedih.. Jangan disimpan dalam hati ya pa..
Apapun yang terjadi valni selalu sayang papa.. God bless you dad..

Letter to God

Thanks God for this great life, this wonderful life, this colorful life. Everything just happened for Your holiness, for Your Glory..
Thanks for the family that You sent to me..
Thanks for all my friends that You give to me..
Thanks for all the people that taught me how to live, to survive, to learn many things in this life..
Thanks for all the treasures in my life..
Now, I am going to be more focus on You, God. I wanna live closer to You, know You more, do Your Commands, know Your likes and dislikes. I just want to make You happy and I just want Your name be lifted high. Just You in my life.

Regards,
Me, Your best friend, Your daughter, Your Princess..

Be a Christian is not that easy..

Dear God, sometimes I feel that You trust me so much.. And this time I feel this is really so hard for me..
Gue rasa proses ini terlalu berat apalagi gue merasa gue sedang menjalaninya sendiri,, tanpa ada yang bisa gue andalkan.. Di saat gue butuh banget bantuan, perhatian, dorongan ga ada yang bisa memenuhi itu.. Sekuat itukah gue untuk menjalani ini semua sendirian.. Saat ini ya Tuhan gue cuma bisa menyerahkan semua kekurangan gue, semua keterbatasan gue dan gue pasrah berserah semoga Tuhan bisa membantu untuk mencari jalan keluar, memberikan solusi, dan kekuatan untuk terus bertahan..
I will never forget to be grateful for all that You've done for me..
One thing, keep me healthy God.. That's the thing I need right now..

It happens again..

You know what,, too much times I live with this feeling.. And now I don't know why I have this feeling and suddenly tears come out.. Why this thing happen to me.. Again..
Just the time I saw his state,, after watching K-series,, and mood I have today.. It's like an answer to me..
But I'm afraid of my next step in my life then..
Dear God,, everything in my life I just want You to take care of it.. I just want to believe in Your Great Plan.. Amin..